I’m back to exclusively breastfeeding my girl…
My “mom instinct” has won me over. And it breaks my heart looking at Kasie’s unhappy face. She eventually took bottles but she is just so unhappy drinking formula. She wasn’t for sure getting comforted.
So I gave in. I know that once she starts her solid baby food in a month her milk needs will drop. I think that will be perfect time to wean her off instead of now.
So happy momma and happy baby. :)
Putting away Christmas decorations today. A bit bitter sweet. Can’t believe 2012 holidays have passed already.
This year when we take these out for Christmas we will be at our new home. So exciting. :) woohoo! See u later Christmas tree!
Lol. I just realized my FIRST 2013 blog is about me being angry. What a way to start my year eh? Haha.
But I’m proud of it in a way. That could be my motto of this year. To stay strong as Kasie’s mom. And to stand my ground. I don’t want to be one of those moms who gets pushed around by other. Not anymore. I want to be a great role model for my girl. I don’t want her to be embarrassed by me.
Kasie is 5 months old and starting yesterday I am weaning Kasie off of breastmilk. I told myself I will breastfeed her till she is 6 months old but my milk supply is slowly decreasing. I am guessing it’s due to Kasie sleeping through the night. I COULD get up in middle of the night and pump 20 minutes and go back to sleep…. but because I’m only a month away, I don’t find myself being that desperate. So I have decided to wean her off slowly.
My plan is to feed her half breastmilk and half formula till she hits 6 months. So technically, I will still be feeding her breastmilk just not exclusively breastfeeding her.
Honestly, it’s emotionally hard. I’m losing that precious baby and I’s bonding time. What if Kasie starts to rely on me less. What if Kasie loves me a little less. It’s just tough on me at the moment. I still want that mom and daughter bonding time. Just have to find a different ways to make that bonding, instead of through breastfeeding.
I’m hoping it will pass fast.
Baby is awake from nap. :) Time to play with her!
Don’t tell me what I’m doing wrong with my baby. You aren’t me. And every baby is different. I’m doing my best to be a best mom for my daughter.
Yap away cause I am not listening. I will ask for advice and listen when I need one. Thanks.
Good bye 2012!! Hello, 2013!!!!!
Here are my ten 2013 resolution/to do list!
1. LOSE weight! - My goal is to lose 10 pounds and up. I gained almost 20 pounds during pregnancy and lost about 6-7 after birth. I got to admit. I didn’t try very hard since I am exclusively breastfeeding my daughter.
2. New Home - We are upgrading from 2 bedroom to 3 bedroom! Our new place is still in middle of construction. Completion date is mid August. Got to really decide on paint colours.
3. MATRON of honour - My best friend is getting MARRIED! OH YAH! Super excited! Going to throw her very memorable Stagette and Bride Shower. Oh ya… Speech. I suck at public speaking!!!! Good thing I will have Rescue Remedy in handy. ;)
4. Two Weddings Wardrobe - I will be attending TWO weddings in 2013! One I’m a wedding party so I don’t have to worry about what the hell I’m going to wear but I’m worried about the other one! But I guess first things first. Lose weight and then pick out a dress…
5. First Birthday - My daughter’s FIRST birthday! July 31st. Koreans are BIG on 1 year old birthday. I will be throwing her a big birthday party. Homemade birthday cake must be done. Oh and traditional Korean rice cakes too!
6. Water - I will be drinking LOTS of water. I drank lots during pregnancy and stopped completely after giving birth. I should keep it consistent and drink water frequently for my better health!
7. Save $$$ - This is something I try to do every day, every week, every month and every year but in 2013, it’s a MUST. Due to new apartment purchase we will be in even more dept… eek.
8. Homemade Meals - We eat out too much. More so take out. It’s been crazy year with pregnancy and new baby that I slacked off on making food at home. Kasie starts her solids starting February so I really want to make sure we are eating more home cooked meals instead of restaurant/fast foods.
9. Better wife & mom - I want to be a better wife and a mom. No more arguing with my husband. More care and love for my daughter, Kasie and husband.
10. Equal love to Ellye - Oh and how can I forget about my fur baby goldie, Ellye. We gave her less attention ever since Kasie was born. Starting 2013, I will include her in more and give her more love and walk her more often. Kasie is also starting to laugh and smile at Ellye so I know she will be getting extra love. Oh and probably lots of baby food will end up in Ellye’s mouth as Kasie starts her solids! HAha.
Happy New Year!!!
2012 has been a big year for me which I will never forget.
I was pregnant for the first half of the year and gave birth to a beautiful girl named Kasie Lorelei. It definitely wasn’t easy going through pregnancy, labor, birth and recovery (postpartum) but it was totally worth it as I’m holding a gorgeous girl in my arms.
New experience in parenting kept me busy for the rest of the year. Being a mom is hard. It takes lots of focus, energy and mostly patience. I learned so much and still learning everyday how to be a better mom.
2012 was a big year also cause my husband started his own animation studio with his best friend. And created 2 seasons of their creation. I’m very proud. I’m sure it wasn’t easy having to start up his own studio, creating show, being a new dad and a husband. Well he did it all and did fantastically. :)
I’m totally going to miss this year.
Yet I look forward to 2013. It’s going to be another big year. I am totally ready for it!
Good bye 2012. You’ve been a memorable year which I will never forget for rest of my life. :D
It’s almost Christmas Day.
I’m sitting here on my couch thinking while my husband takes our dog out for her last walk of the day.
Time really flew by. I’m not talking about since I gave birth to Kasie. But since forever ago when I was a little kid. Yes, I once was a little kid too. Can’t believe it….
I’m happy I came this far. Just remembering my past and reminencing it tonight.
Kasie is 4.5 months old. Few weeks ago she started to poop once every 4-5 days. She poops a lot at once and even her farts started to stink.
All these are sign of healthy growing baby. I’m a happy mama. Lol
Only time I can cut my baby girl’s nails are when she is asleep. Glad she slept long enough for me to cut all of her finger nails and toe nails. :)
What do I want for Christmas? Baby things. Everything baby stuff. I guess this is what motherhood is. I can’t think of anything that I want for myself. Absolutely nothing. Just all for my baby girl, Kasie!
I want peg perego or bjorn or stokke highchair. Baby forks, spoons bowls, plates and cups from boon and skip hop. Baby clothes. Skip hop baby toys. Fisher price Jungle jumparoo. And more!
If you ask me what I want for Christmas for MYSELF. I can’t come up with a single item. Don’t want make up cause I don’t want unnatural things on my body. Which can end up on my baby’s skin. Can’t buy shoes since I got enough flats and boots to wear. No heels since I don’t want to trip over while holding a baby.
I guess this is what happens when you become a mom.
